On Giving Up Screens For Good (+ a GIVEAWAY!)

The first day off screens I was twitchy. My FOMO was high. Each time I unlocked my phone for a legitimate use (say when my husband texted his ETA for dinner or to check the time of a meeting in the calendar), my thumb would automatically swipe left to where I’d “hidden” the social media apps. Fingers running on autopilot. That night I moved the phone charger from my bedside table to another room for the overnight charge and didn’t know what to do with myself when I woke the next morning. I’d like to report that I got out of bed, went outside to greet the day, inhaled deeply and then sat on the front porch for a sunrise meditation, but really, I just rolled over and went back to sleep. Likely to avoid temptation.

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This Is What a Miscarriage Looks Like

If you’ve followed this blog for long, you’ll know it’s not a secret that I’ve had ten miscarriages in the space of six years. October 15th is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day and I thought this might be a good time to remind people of what miscarriage looks like.

I dug a little into our photo archives and found pictures on the day (or day after) I started miscarrying each of my pregnancies. Can you tell?

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The memoir I won't have to write

Two weeks ago, I am at Children’s Hospital, waiting for the results of my daughter’s blood test. I am convinced my future looks bleak, hers even bleaker. Which is strange, considering I’m usually such an optimist. How am I going to write this scene in my memoir, I find myself wondering? How will I describe this night in the years and pages to come? (Such is the curse and the privilege of those who play with words, I suppose).

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